The Ripped Soul

Can a heart still break after it has stopped beating?

Heh. That's the line from the movie : Tim Burton's Corpse Bride. It's an awesome show, really. That is, if you liked the movie The Nightmare Before Christmas. Music's great, there's the humour, and the feel of romance in the air. Ahh.. A movie made that was almost perfect, if not for the short time and abrupt ending.

Hmm.

Anyway, some people from the parkour movement caught up with me, and they're asking me out for jams and stuff. So people! Please prepare the stretcher and wheelchair. And maybe a coffin. Last I heard, some guy fell 14 storeys to his death while attempting a "rail spin". Brr. Scary.

About my other entry, its just bout an arguement my mom and I had. She wants me to go to sec 5, do my O's. But I don't want ANY of that. Like the teachers said, "its an invitation for you to go to sec 5" .. Invitations can be turned down, right? I don't care. I just don't want to see their faces anymore. And when I told her I wanted to go to Shatec, you should have heard the tone in her voice - it was like as if I said I wanted to go to ITE or something.

Just get so damn annoyed with people who tell me what to do with my fucking life. She says that Rita's mother in the movie Sister Act 2 is just wrong. Telling her daughter that she can't sing, that she must quit the choir, that singing is no way to make a living. Why doesn't she see that she's doing the same to me? Telling me that I can't make a living if I drop out and go to Shatec, that I must do my O's, go to a poly.

WHAT DIFFERENCE WOULD IT MAKE IF I FLUNKED MY O's AT THE END?

The reason I did my N's was because my bestie asked me to. Pleaded with me to do it. Otherwise, boy, did I just want to quit SO many fucking times. May, June, July, August.. SO many times. You people just don't know how screwed up my school really is. How screwed up the teachers are there. Surfing for students blogs, getting involved in student's affairs, knowing EVERYTHING about their student's life. I ask you, if the student is going out with another student, what business is it of the teachers to get involved? If the student has emotional problems with her family, what business is it of the teachers to get involved if the student doesn't ask for help?

Sometimes, there's that tiny difference between care and concern AND being a busybody. And they're nosey parkers - all of them. And I can't stand that.

We'll see what happens on the 19th of Dec when I collect my results. I'm still staying stuck as glue to my decision - SHATEC. Its either that, or ITE. I am NOT EVER going back to that dreaded place EVER again. Even if I joined Singapore Idol, and had to sing some place, I'd rather sing all the way in church, or go all the way back to Cedar. Any other place than that hellhole near the Nepalese camp. If my decision fails, and someone else makes my mind up for me, and IF i land back at that hellspot, guess it'll be the last time you guys see me for Christmas.

I'll either call my dad, or well.. run. You know what I'd do. Whatever it is, I'm just so sick of being their student there. And I'm NEVER going back there. Even if you paid me a million.

I'm gonna go back to my guitar now. Its finally Sunday tomorrow. Can't wait to see all my buddies again.