The Ripped Soul

Have you ever had one of those days that just lets you have the worst headache ever?

I'm experiencing it now. And its HELL. Hot weather. Irritating people. Overload of homework. Thoughts that come to no end. Unpleasant surprises that pop up like no one's business.

And no matter what, NOTHING cures the fucking headache.

Someone please tell me why I'm still studying my guts out when I know I'm not going to make it. Exams, tests, homework, sleep, study, exams, tests, homework.. THAT'S PRACTICALLY MY LIFE RIGHT NOW! I might as well be a robot or something!

Yes, its that bad. Its actually getting worse. I don't hang out as often as I used to, I'm not having fun doing what I do. My "friends" suck, my foreign buddies are all I got left, the thought of her and I getting back to where we were never seems to happen cos of things that affect the f/s, I don't feel the bonds with LC anymore... shit like that.

Like whenever I see LCians around, I don't feel as 'in' as I was before. Just feel like some ordinary member. Don't feel the closeness. And it just.. sucks.

Maybe I just need some sleep to kill all this nonsense.
Maybe I need some drinks to cool this shit off.
Maybe I should just drop out of school since it seems like a mistake.
Maybe all I need is to get drunk and I'd be aight.
Maybe all I need is just to get-a-life.
Maybe I'm just going bonkarios and I need a shrink.

Maybe I should just disappear from the face of the earth.

Maybe. Maybe not.