The Ripped Soul

My life is crazy right now. On Sunday I was still okay. There were signs of me about to fall sick, but I dismissed it thinking maybe it was just the easter chocolates. How wrong.

On Monday, I was still okay at 6am. A little throat irritation, a little sinus, a little bit of a blocked nose. That was, till I got my ass to school. Was dry coughing like a dog! My throat hurt SO bad. By the second break at 130pm, I lost my voice completely. I felt like I was shouting, but when I spoke, it all came out in soft whispers. So damn irritating I tell you. Asked for sick leave. IT WAS ALREADY 3! But because of the damned SCHOOL PROCEDURES, I had to call my mother and make sure he talks to her. Just to be let off. What if my life was at risk? If I had a fishbone stuck in my throat? Would you still want to call my mother?

God was on my side anyway. She answered, we talked, he talked, we talked again, receptionist said "alahai.. manjanya!" I swear if I could bop a shotgun shell in her brain, it'd have been done.

But he got the paper signed anyway. So thank God. And yes, thank you cher.

Got annoyed at some stupid questions being asked.. but in fear of being GOOGLED, I shall not post it here.

Went to the doc's after that. The clerk was a total bitch. If I could tie her up and make her sit facing a self-detonating bomb which ticks away every second she takes a breath, I'll do it.

her: do you have a handphone number?
me: yes.
her: well, what is it?
me: 942..
her: 9-4-what?

I'm already irritated cos I feel like I'm shouting, but my words were totally deaf to her ears. So I started sign languaging.

me: *shows 9 fingers, then 4, then 2..*
her: you don't have to do that. just tell me what's your number. *annoyed frown*

Screw her la shit. Another one of those people I wish I could shoot, kick to Pluto, or murder mercilessly. At least let me continue what I was doing. You're the deaf idiot in the first place.

Saw the doc. Quite a nice chap. Gave me 2 days MC and a long list of medication. Collected the medicine downstairs and went home.

Tuesday. Took a break. Slept like a bum till 10am. Took medicine, went right back to bed before completing my reading of Memories of Midnight. Nice novel, but too many details that are a tad too difficult to understand. Went to school to collect homework from H. Saw many teachers, but didn't bother greeting any. Enemy number One, remember? Waited for H. Started recalling what he said on Monday.

"You already so plump.. must be because of the chips you keep on eating. Then now, see? So plump already and you lost your voice. Wah liew.. "

He's soooo damn insensitive. I can't stand him. Like hello? Didn't your parents or anyone ever teach you never to say such things to a girl unless she asks? And even if she does, you're not supposed to be so sharp. Can't you be a little blunt? Its only kind that you don't even say such things in the first place. Its not like I'm your girlfriend or sister or something. I'm just your friend. The least you could do is have a little respect right? I mean, would you like it if I made fun of you being all skin and bones with no muscles who suffers from a bad case of acne? You wouldn't like it right? Duh. That's just the kind of respect I have for my friends. I don't say such things about them cos I don't want the same to happen to me. Don't see why you should be so special. Ugh. Its no wonder you're not attached. Asshole.

H interrupted my thoughts when she hit the metal gate with my books. She told me what happened in class and stuff. Then the bell rang.. so she ran back to class, and I left for home. Not. Went to Espie. Borrowed some books, gave back some books. Walked past Raffles City. Bakerzin. INK. Wanted to take a picture of the signboard there.. but felt totally drowsy again. Medication was taking effect. Left for home.

Played playstation. Time Crisis. TC2. Rainbow 6. Got bored. Switched it off, went online, no one to chat with, went offline, went to sleep. Woke up, ate, took medication, watched Gaduh Gaduh Sayang, saw her acting in it.. and well.. I can safely say that I'm not THAT crazy over her anymore.. BUT I STILL WANT HER AUTOGRAPH PHIL! Haha. Then.. went back to bed after packing my bag and filing all the damn school papers. Had to wake up for school today (Weds).

Woke up at 4am to take a piss. Was still feeling damn drowsy from the medication late last night. Saw the clock, still had 2 hours to myself.. so I went back to bed. And when I went back to bed, I had no idea that Amanda SMSed me 5 times. That means my phone rang 5 times. A song worth of 3 minutes per call/sms. She rang every 5 minutes. From 6am to 630am. AND I HAD NO IDEA AT ALL. My phone was set to LOUD by the way. And yet, I never woke up! Some dead sleeper I am, huh?

Woke up when the sun shone at my face. I PANICKED! Had a headache the moment I jumped out of bed. Went right back and hid under my covers. Then my mother came in my room, said that she tried to wake me up but I was sleeping like a log. Oh boy.

I'm in so much trouble tomorrow. I have to write a stupid parental letter explaining my absence today. There're Science practicals tomorrow. And I have no idea whether I'm in section 1 or 2, or whether I have any lessons at all tomorrow.. ahhhh.

And I'm still sick. When I take my medication later, I KNOW I'M GOING TO BE DROWSY AGAIN. Irritating.

And another note? From dry coughing, it has changed to the PHLEGM one. And whenever I try to spit it out, all that comes out is just saliva. Urgh. But its nice being sick.

I get to REST and take a break. AWAY FROM THE STRESSES I HAVE IN SCHOOL! And I get my mother's attention. :D

Okay, I'm off to play Rainbow Six again. Then more filing to do later at 8. WILL SLEEP AT 9. And I better wake up by 530am tomorrow. Shit.

I'm so dead.