The Ripped Soul

Went for mass today, felt like I had all the energy in the world. And just like how it was raining like catsanddawgs in the morning, the sun returned as soon as I saw loads more people walking in for choir. (:

The livewire buzzed out though, during mass. Aloy was saying that he's leaving when Dawn leaves, and I was practically begging him to stay.

During prayer of the faithful, I pointed to one line in the gospel passage to Drey.

"Then Jesus said to the Twelve, 'What about you, do you want to go away too?"

Her reply saddened me until after mass ended. She said she'd leave if her parents leave.. :(

You know what's so depressing? Its not the fact that LC closed. Yes, LC closed, boohuhu. But its not the factor that crushes me. Its because people are leaving. Youths are leaving. Friends are leaving.

If LC changed its name, but the people stayed, things would still be the same.

If LC closed, but the people stayed, things would still be the same. We'd still see each other, we'd still have fun, the energy and life would still be there.

If LC didn't close, BUT people left - there'll be that difference.

A damn bloody good example was when Ernie decided to quit as a conductress and leave LC for another church. Andrea and I were so alone. Whenever we went for choir, I'm sure Drey got just as sick of me as I was with her. Why? Cos bubbles wasn't there, her energy was missing, she wasn't there to tune us, she wasn't there to whisper in either of our ears, she wasn't there giggling during FK's homily, she wasn't there to tease Drey with me, she wasn't there to yell at me to SHUTUP and start laughing, she wasn't there, period. That was the difference.

So can you imagine the amount of damage when LC closes, AND when people leave?

Nick's gone. The Lees are gone. That's 4.

Then Ernie. Then Aloy. Then Randall. And I'm sure that when choir feels dead enough, more people would leave.

Colleen. Me. Maybe Marion, Andrea and the remnants of the Yam's!

I'm not being paranoid. I'm just giving you the reality of the situation. So please, for the love of God, me and the whole of humanity..

Stay. Please.

If you don't want to stay for the church, stay to help the choir. Don't want to help the choir, then just stay as friends. Sit behind at the confessionals if you will. Stay as company, stay to keep the energy going. Don't let the energy just die off. Ben and I would be struggling to keep you guys alive.

It takes two hands to clap, as the saying goes. Ben and I are trying, but if you guys wanna come on in for mass all dead, zombified and start saying "uh.. i wanna leave. i wanna leave. uggg.. LC closed. Youth sure die. This place sure become boring." Then our efforts are gonna be wasted. At least, if you stay, you could give the energy we need. We could work as a team to keep ourselves alive. We could be a bigger green group. Things would be happening. But we need you for all that to happen. Do you get me?

I'm not forcing you to stay. I'm asking. Pleading. Begging, if you will.

As for the rest of you guys, worry not. Plans are already undergoing for bbqs, gatherings and potlucks and chalet meetups. THIS IS NOT THE END OF LC's ROAD. We'll still have fun and you guys can still see me run when we play rugby or captain's ball, whatever. But if you guys leave, how in heaven's am I going to contact you guys, laugh with you guys, plan with you guys?

Like I said in my previous entry, LC is just a name, and it can close in StStephen. But our energy will still be there. We will still be there. We must be there. If not for the church, at least for each other. By leaving, you guys are letting the enemy win. All those people who said unkind things, who wished bad things of us, who cursed us and said that our journey would one day end.

We must be strong in times like these.

Buck up guys. Be energized. Lets kickass this Sunday and for all the other Sundays until they return. And when we return, we'll do it with a BIG bang, aye?

So please, stay.

And by the way, Andrea reassured me later after mass that she wouldn't be leaving cos her parents wouldn't leave. BUT ITS STILL SO SCARY LA DREY! Please don't leave.. no Ernie, no you.. then what happens to meeeeee? I'll be left all alone, laughing at my own jokes to no one but myself. :(

And Celest rock laaaa. Love you la Cel. She said that don't worry, our Bubbles will be back. If not now, then someday. (:

Sigh. So yes. PLEASE STAY, the rest of you.

And for those that left, PLEASE COME BACK !!!!! If not now, then please come back soon... :'(