The Ripped Soul

Couldn't sleep tonight, so I stayed up reading old entries. All the fun, the heartache and closures, the crazy days of O levels, to breakups and dealing with them, to quitting choir, to new obsessions, to Steve, to my PSP and a wishlist that's been fufilled and so much more..

Realised why N said I'm a person that's already burdened and I need to get my life back on track, I need to move back on the roads and keep going instead of going around in circles. Need to have a place to go to, a dream to fufill..

Then I was reading and watching interviews about A. Jolie. And I love her, if you don't already know. Quite surprising seeing how she's a gemini and I'm a taurus and we're not exactly supposed to be compatible. But whatever. I love how she's so dark and real in acting. I love how she's so generous.. and how she uses her fame to showcase another side of the world. I love how she's so loving with Mad and her kids. I love how she's so deep.

And there was this one interview where she was saying something like our lives here are like nothing, compared to those who are suffering; like, really suffering. Like fighting for their lives and trying to beat starvation just to live to see another day.

And suddenly it occurs to me that I don't want some preprinted photograph with her sig on it. I would rather hunt her down and tell her she's awesome, that she's doing something really good for the world; by bringing such awareness to the material world.. to people like me, to people like us who only give a shit if they can put food on the table, if they can save to buy that new PSP, that new handbag, that new house, that new wallet... here we have girls whining about being fat, about not being able to get the latest Guess? bag, the latest LV wallet, about not being able to fly around the world and go to disneyland for holiday.. when there are kids that are homeless, dying and fighting to survive elsewhere. If not for her film beyond bords I probably wouldn't know about dying kids in Ethiopia and how its all so real and not some old-wives tale mom's tell you when you don't finish your dinner at the table.

THEN after saying that, ask for an autograph. Mebbe a picture along with that too. Hah.

But she's really awesome. Honest. But she probably knows that already. I bet her fans tell her that all the time till she just nods it off or smiles enough to make one melt. If she doesn't know that... then I guess my blog's here and this entry's kind of stuck in all the cached search engines once I publish it, right? Hah.

And Rome's not gonna be happening for me. Something cropped up and she doesn't want to go anymore.

And by the way, did you know that the Taurus[sp?] is most compatible with Cancers, Virgos and Capricorns?

AND it so happens that HIS zodiac's a Cancer? My God.. I never knew till Ria told me! Haha. Maybe that's why I like him. Why we like him. And why we miss him so much when he's not here anymore.

I read the sms he sent. Watched the videos he was in. And its been so long, yet I still miss him. So, so very much.

Wheeew..