The Ripped Soul

Hmm. Things aren't really looking up.

Even as friends we're fighting.

My best friend is attached now.

I'm single. And I hate how previously I didn't really give a shit about being in a relationship or not; but caring so much now and regretting every wrong thing I said or did that broke us up in the first place. I hate caring that I'm single. I hate being single.

Is it wrong to want to be loved again?

Valentine's day is coming. I have no valentine. And that sucks hard, really. It does.

I'm working at a place where I don't wanna work at. I don't have friends there. I'm alone, new and it sucks being the only idiot that doesn't know anything going on.

Everything just kinda sucks right now.

I'm tired of being the one always making the first move.
I'm tired of dealing with Joce saying I don't beep her when I go out with Lyn.
I'm tired of hearing I'm a bad friend because I know I'm fucking not.
I'm tired of people and love being in the air.
I'm tired of feeling like this.

I'm sick and fucking tired of loving, living and screaming inside while putting on a mask pretending everything's fucking alright when its not.

Fuck. What's wrong with me?