The Ripped Soul

Just back from dinner with Anna and Clare.

ECP.. who'd have thought.

Prawns we had.. the fried sort with the cereal flakes. The last time I had those were with you.. I was hungry and so were you and you decided to take me out for dinner downstairs, late as it was. Fried rice and prawns, right? They were your favourite and you were happily crunching away on them. Funny how I still remember.

I remember what happened during that dinner too. Fucking guy. But what did you say? All you could ever want and ask for was right in front of you.. and that I was all you ever needed and wanted.

Ha.

Took a walk before dinner.. took a walk after dinner.. but the memories just never went away.

I still remember all the hurtful things you said to me point blank on Valentine's day. I know we weren't together.. but even as friends.. or ex-es, even. Too damn hurtful. The mask I had to put on that day.. stronger than any other.

And my heart just crumbled.. remembering.

Funny how my heart kind of misses you still.. but when I go to your blog, I see you as a completely new person. Almost like as if you're a total stranger. Almost like as if I never knew you, almost like as if we were never.

And while walking, Anna was talking to me.. and it was a good thing that she was. She provided a form of distraction. But asshole I was, I had to be annoying and cut her halfway while she was talking to give remarks and such.. so she got annoyed and stopped telling me the story.

And just a wrong timing of things.

Bumped into Sanjit while walking.. he's so tall now! Then he was telling me about his school.. dude actually made it to poly.

Ha. And where am I? Freakin... nevermind.