Mallar Honey its not about us. its abt u and jess.
So you say it's about me and Lyn. Because you've texted us, and we've never replied. If I check my phone right the fuck now, it doesn't have anything to do with
"hey I'm meeting Belle later for lunch, wanna come?" or
"hey I'm meeting Nabilah this weekend, wanna go out?" or
"hey, wanna watch a movie?" or
"hey, wanna grab dinner?"
None of that.
It's just YOU and your silly birthday invitation, which reads as follows :
"Good morning darlings!! Please keep yourself free on aug 31st (Tuesday) in the evening. I want to have dinner with all my close girlfriends on my birthday. We shall go for a buffet dinner at a hotel around 6pm. My 21st birthday celebration will be on 11 Sep at 6pm."
It doesn't ask for a reply, a reservation, an RSVP. Nothing. It's like, you EXPECT us to be there. So naturally, it's just saved, and all of us are like "oh okay." Therefore, don't throw the card back at my face saying you texted and we never replied.
The time when you DID text us, when your boyfriend was a fucker, we met up with you. You were even late. You got lost. It's fine. We waited. We wanted to catch a show, you wanted to walk around, so fine - we walked around.
The other time when you guys almost broke up, we met at Macdonalds even.
Months before my birthday and we met up again at Hougang mall and you were all "yeah I'm going to do your make up for you. I got a friend who will do your make up. You want these pair of heels, Jess?"
My own DAMN birthday and Sherlyn had the balls to invite you guys all 3 MONTHS ahead in advance and all I got was a phonecall from you wishing me happy birthday. What heels? What make up? You weren't even there.
It's fine, you know. Because to me, it was never about me. It was always about you guys and making you guys happy.
So you couldn't come because you had work. You had to look after your mom since she was hospitalized. Fine. I got facebook wishes. Phonecalls. Text messages. Fine. My birthday, I had my share of fun, I had the chance to go to Universal Studios, fine. I had the pleasure of paying for my birthday dinner at Giraffe and my best friends were there, so fine.
But don't give me this bullshit like as if you texted every single time and we never replied.
Anna texts me and I reply.
My friends from the States text me and I reply all of them, costly as it is.
Sherlyn texts and I reply.
Even when Wayne texts me, I reply.
I hate to say this, but I've always known who my real friends were since the start.
You were never one of them. You were a friend, but you were never a real one.
Because the moment someone turns their back on me, you're like sheep. You follow them too.
Remember sec 2? Brenda and Maria and whatever. You and Nabilah straight turned on me. I had Lyn, lucky me. Then she turned too. Or back in sec 1? You pushed the blame on me for the donation thing. Thanks. And again in sec 1 when you ruined the card I made for Ms Lee? Yeah. Thanks. And then in sec 4. When Sherlyn was with Wei Quan and you were there.. and you knew that I was innocent. But he said I was a bad influence, and only allowed you and Nabilah to be friends with Lyn. Did you guys even count me in? Nope. You both turned your back on me.
But that was back then, that was back in school, when everyone was naive and stupid and childish.
Even after we graduated and chilled out at your house.. we told each other we were gonna meet up again.
Nabilah couldn't because she was busy with work. She was busy with her pregnancy. She was busy with her boyfriend, with her love life and her work life and her family life.
She said wait for July.
We've all been waiting for July, and guess what? IT IS JULY.
And the first thing we hear is you're going out with her. Without us. And you don't even have the cheek to call us and ask us along when ALL of us have been waiting for this.
So fuck you. Fuck you and your "it's not us. It's you and Jess."
Because we've clearly tried to make an effort.
You haven't.
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