Anyway, today. Met the guys in the afternoon once I was done with admin duties at school. It was a pain in the arse by the way. Fucking had drama and all that in the room. Boy, could I die of embarrassement. Talk, talk, talk.
her: did you know there were classes even BEFORE school closed and she didn't even attend any of them?
maader: no.. she never even told me! I mean, m'am, I'm working like 2 jobs. [I get stunned here. To my knowledge, my mom only works ONE job at the fuckin hotel.] One is a full-time, and the other a part-time. [FUCK! she's working part time?! since fucking-when?!] and we have no communication at all.. at most, all she does is leave a note on the table or somethin'. Because she comes home late, she sleeps, then I come home, and we hardly see each other. ( at least that part's true. we have no contact at all. so she can do ANYTHING, and fuck, I won't even know about it. or at least, the OTHER way around.. hahaha.)
her: i see, i see.
maader: yeah.. and this is all so that I can support her in her studies you know.. (blahblah.) [tears and all included. someone bring the fucking box of kleenex.]
God, I think I rolled my eyes like 3-5 times when she said that. Christ. Is she lying or what?
her: okay. jessica. you are aware that once you go to sec 5, you cannot work part time, or whatever, right? Cos there's going to be intensive classes in june and all. next month will be a quick one. 9 months. then its your exams. i don't want to hear the teachers saying "oh, jessica couldn't come because of work." or whatever..
my first thought: FUCK! That also means I CANNOT join Singapore Idol!!! FUCK!!!! Oh fuck.
her: and you know that once you are in 5N, you are to work diligently all the way, right? there's no more sleeping in classes and skipping classes and parent's letters. clear?
me: yah.
her: so do you still want to go to sec 5?
thoughts: FUCK! Should just quit now. me? diligent? its like fucking asking me to be no.1 nerd in class! then I can't join Idol! FUCK! No-fucking-way! but... I'll be letting everyone else down. [ my insides were tearing themselves apart. I really wanna know how good I am. Good enough for idol, or not. but O's.. sigh.]
me: yeah.
her: so by saying that, you WILL put in effort next year and NOT skip anymore classes ah?
me: yeah.
her: you will fully prepare yourself and be diligent in class and not play anymore..
me: yah. mr __ already briefed me on that.
her: sure you're ready for sec 5? no more nonsense?
me: yup.
Crap. So yeah. Signed the damn form, she said okay, she'll see me when school re-opens, I take back my results slip and CIAO! Outside school, I was obviously unhappy cos I'm officially like, tied to my chains with the heavy iron ball tugging at my ankles.
Fucking hate that feeling. Everyone else would be happy goin to sec 5 - but not me, no fucking way.
Going home together with my mom was a complete DRAG. Sorry for being a bitch to say such a thing, but I'm being honest. You know kids, whenever your parents say "all we care about is your happiness.. i won't force you to do this or that or this or that." ITS FUCKING BULLSHIT! I'm living PROOF! A fucking living example!
Freedom my ass. Even in here. Freedom of speach my fucking ass. Scold someone BITCH, and oooh. Get expelled. Fired. Sacked. Fucking balls lah.
So yeah. Damn school-life starts on 3rd Jan. Fuck. Someone just give me medicated oil. I'd rather drink it and die. And LC can have my money from AIA. I don't even want my damn family to have it.
Then yeah. Went home, changed, got the present ready, wrote a note, and left. Ran for the train. Hah. And it was only at Tanah Merah when I realised the rest were on the train as well.
Joked about, played around, got to Changi Airport, ate at Popeye's, waited for Brendan and the rest of the family, made fun of Aloy's balding spot, caught up with Brendan, gave Brendan present, let them check in, had photo shots taken, then we ALL went to Jollibean for last couple of drinks. Was the uncles' treat.
THANKS UNCLES!
Then we chatted, made fun of the singaporean surfers, talked about tsunamis hitting Singapore, talked about how Randall would be the first to die, then Zac talked about having stomachache thanks to the drinks, how he wanted to take a shit so badly, made listeners lose appetite, then he took our left-over of drinks, then we made fun of Zac drinking 3 cups of soya milk, aaaand then, it was departure time.
Sobs here, sobs there, poor Eilise was crying and Aloy was so DAMN insensitive!
he: don't cry lah, you'll see them tomorrow waaad.
WAH LAO EH.
Then yeah. They hugged, guys shook hands, I hugged Brendan goodbye, then we all gathered together at the gates to see them off, then shout and wave 'bye' one last time before turning away. Then we were about to split from T2.. so they were all saying bye to Aloy's dad and Colleen and Eilise, ....then I kneeled on one knee and gave Eilise a big hug bye-bye, since her flight would be at 4am. Would love to see the lil' one off, but its like, even MRTs don't operate at that hour. o'Else you'd see me there, no doubt!
Hehs. I will miss that girl. Haha. You know, at the table at Jollibean, she was so sweet. She came over to me and whispered in my ear:
"You know, I never said this to anyone else, but I think you're cool."
So sweet lah. There's hardly any first timers who'd actually say such things. TO ME. Of all people. Haha.
Serrrrweet lil young thing. I love you Eilise! Take caree! Have a safe flight back!
Then we split, girls went toilet, but toilet was too smelly, got out in 3 secs, guys were shocked how fast we were, then told them what happened, Zac said "NO MORE TOILET BREAKS!"..... then we went to T1? I think. Might have gotten it mixed up. Anyway, girls went toilet, did their thing, then we went back.. we wanted to see this girl named Andrea, but cos SOME people had to be real spoilers and GO HOME EARLY....
We decided not to go.
And we ended up WALKING from Aljunied's MRT station to Joo Seng's playground. And after rounds of decisions, we split to go back home cos Randall wanted to change. So I followed Zac. Jumped over the fence, landing was an awesome feeling. Had dinner there, changed to his red jersey (which now smells like rotting fish) cos I was wearing a damn long sleeve tee, and no idiot in the right frame of mind would play catching in that.... and then watched fear factor before going back to the playground.
Thanks Zac for the shirt. Promise to wash it and dry it and give it back asap.
Then yeaaaah. Went here, waited, stoned, then went to Yam's place. Watched a lil' teevee. Waited for Fonz and Aloy. Went back to playground after watching a lil of ANTM. I think Diane looks good. Hmm.
Went to the playground and the first thing the guys played was the MERRY-GO-ROUND. Standing, running, flying.. Then played Crocodile, and the whole crew found out that Randall's a monkey! HAHA. Bloody idiot climbs damn well. All the way to the top of the shelter of the playground. Ass. Cheater! HAHA. Then we played our normal catching. Maaaadness. Can imagine if the whole gang was there, full-force. It'll be mad! HAHA. Wooooohoo. Game stopped after Zac became catcher for the 5th? time.. Caught bus with Randall to go back.
Aight. That's all for today. Busy busy busy day tomorrow. Crap. And I'm STILL brooding over Singapore Idol. Damn.
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