The Ripped Soul

Dear Ripped Soul,

It's 11:47pm. My eyes are half closed, and my mom is pissed at me cuz I didn't go for mass. I have an MCQ paper - which I so did NOT study for - tomorrow at 8 in the freaking morning before I can yell HALLELUJAH at the front gate of my school. Prom is 2 days from now and I don't know if I should do a suit or THAT really see-through gown. And I still do NOT know for a fact if that freak is going. I'm so ditching the prom if he is going. Last person on planet earth I'll ever wanna see.

*GIVES A BIG BEAR YAWN* ..I'm so tired..

BUT, I'm gonna enjoy meselfo after 9am tomorrow morning.

For one, I'm finally gonna get a PSP game UMD. MY FIRST UMD! *tears*
Then, I'm going to watch Happy Feet. And then Step up. Twice. Once with Drey, another time with J. WOOHOO!

I love dance movies.

And when I can finally get Rach to plan something with my bestie, I'm gonna watch all the horror shows. Especially Final Call and 956. MUST WATCH. Can't watch with J cos he's a pussy when it comes to freaky girls in long hair who can't speak english.

Then, I'm gonna get my cat. Which my mum is SO against. She's like, you'll never see me around the house anymore if you get that cat. Damn urghness. She's okay with kittens, but not cats. WHY? What did the kitty ever do to you...

So yeah. That's gonna be my life for the next week. Or so I think. Then in Dec, it's X'mas. And with LC's closure and me quitting choir.. hahaha.. I don't know what's this christmas gonna be like.

Oh yeah. And I think I'll be heading to QOP from now onwards. Their choir's pretty good, the aircon's damn shiok and the priest's homilies make sense.

I miss my friends though.

Oh well. ...Or maybe I might join J at CTK. But if I do that, I'll bump into Winnie the pooh bear. And he's gonna be the asshole he is and start laughing at me when he sees me at mass. Then I'll have one big ass argument, then Jaws and I won't talk, then J will be wondering what happened.. then.. SIGH. I'm thinking too much.

And then there's my cousin's friend. And that beach party my cousin's planning in Dec. And just like Jennifer Paige sings; "its just a lil crush, not like I faint, everytime we touch.." At least, that's how I hope things are like. I mean.. His smile, his chisled bod, his laughter.. Gosh, I could go on and never end. Shit. I'm so screwed up.. I've already got J. I should just be happy as it is. And just like a lesson learnt from the past, better to be happy with the other as a friend than to take the risk and regret losing the both of them. Anyway.. we're both so different. And he's not really in my league.. and there was that girl he was talking about the other day. Right? Right.

So I better stop this foolishness and just quit thinking ahead any further. Gah.

We'll see how things go.

Love, me.