The Ripped Soul

- M. Carey - W. Afanasieff -

Ooooooh
Mmmh

I am thinking of you
In my sleepless solitude tonight
If it's wrong to love you
Then my heart just won't let me be right
'Cause I've drowned in you
And I won't pull through
Without you by my side

I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

Baby can you feel me
Imagining I'm looking in your eyes
I can see you clearly
Vividly emblazoned in my mind
And yet you're so far
Like a distant star
I'm wishing on tonight

I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight

[guitar break]

I'd give my all to have
Just one more night with you
I'd risk my life to feel
Your body next to mine
'Cause I can't go on
Living in the memory of our song
I'd give my all for your love tonight
(I'd) give my all for your love
Tonight

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Changed the imeem song AGAIN since Jaws said she'll "push me, and touch me" till I get my satisfaction. Pretty damn literally. -_-

So I haven't been blogging in a bit I know. I got my reasons. Well, first off, the past week is nothing but going out with The Fan-tas-tics. (I kept typing fanatics. Yes, laugh.)

Then on one fine night when GTA finished downloading, my computer went kapoots. The whole power system went down and nothing could make it work again. New plugs, new power points, the works. Nothing worked.

So my mum finally decided to get a new pc. :D

And surprise me that very day itself and got me the phone I wanted as well. Brand new K800i. Double grins!

But even now those two pieces of happy news can't overturn the depression I'm in now. In fact, despite typing the good news up on top, tears were rolling. Heehaw. Why? Because...

He's gone.

He left all of us this morning. And with all the shuffle and bustle, no one cried. Think everyone was just far too sleepy to feel anything yet. I'd know because once I woke from my slumber after I came home and slept, I cried. Far worse than when Jem left.

And with everyone on MSN asking 'eh you okay?' 'so how are you?' 'feeling alright there?' ....I don't know. Made it worse? Just adds on to the misery and hopelessness of knowing that I'll never see him again.

I know it doesn't really link, but it just adds on because the fact is.. I'm not alright, I'm not feeling mighty fine that he's gone and it's a dozen other reasons other than the inescapable fact that he may never come back as much as I want him to; whether or not we remain as friends still once he reads the letter.

Even listening to soppy lil love songs doesn't ease the pain. I wonder what would. Then again maybe not. Cos if I have to feel this miserable every morning to remember him, I'd rather handle the misery than forget about Mr Fantastic altogether.

I just wish so badly we could have another night with him, if not another couple of decades till we all die.

He may never read this either. Don't think he'll remember our blogs.. will he?

Deb, if you're reading this, do leave a tag.. it's the least you can do.. (:

And I miss you already... so do come back soon... please. :*(