The Ripped Soul

Its 1:50am and the tv's running with Mtv on the channel. Every other channel is playing something scary. Night watch, when a stranger calls...

I read blogs and people are in the mood for halloween.. the fancy costumes, scary fests, horrorthons and all. And I wonder about kids in Cam and Eth. Do they celebrate anything at all?
Do they have a new year? Do they even know when its a new year? Do they celebrate christmas? Halloween? Thanksgiving? Hannukah? Anything? What about simple occasions like birthdays? Do they get presents? Cakes?

The luxuries we have showered upon us... yet we still ask for more.

Then Jaws interrupts my thoughts and tells me that she and the Whale have called it quits.

Amazing how it all ends like that.

Just feels like yesterday when I was running away from him feeling all heartbroken when I found out they both got together.

Now they're over. After 4 and a half years.

So that's that, huh?

But does that mean we're over too?

And I've come across my new favourite song while watching Wedding Crashers for the 163254789th time. It's on imeem. Check it.

Coldplay - sparks

Did I drive you away?
I know what you'll say
You'll say, "Oh, sing one we know"
But I promise you this
I'll always look out for you
That's what I'll do

I say "oh"
I say "oh"

My heart is yours
It's you that I hold on to
That's what I do
And I know I was wrong
But I won't let you down
(Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah, yeah I will, yes I will…)

I said "oh"
I cry "oh"

Yeah I saw sparks
Yeah I saw sparks
And I saw sparks
Yeah I saw sparks
Singing out

La, la, la, la, oh…
La, la, la, la, oh…
La, la, la, la, oh…
La, la, la, la, oh…

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And to end tonight's entry, I was talking to D earlier in the afternoon. About what he's gonna do, what I'm gonna do.. since he failed the enlistment thing and it's already november now and I need to decide where the fuck to go to next year. ITE, Shatec, Poly... the works.

Seems we're both kinda in a similar situation.. but I've got it worse.

And the bad news out of it all? He's really never coming back. CH's sugar coating me with "don't worry, he'll be back in 2 years.." isn't gonna work anymore. He said it himself that he's not able to come back here anymore since they confiscated his greencard. He's somewhat bound in there till the day he becomes a gurkha. I find that quite wrong.. I mean, he's supposed to have some sort of rights that can entitle him the chance to go wherever he wants to, right?

I've yet to learn how the world.. sorry, this world. How this world really works.