The Ripped Soul

DAMN this, you know?

You said you'll change. Try to change. Then what the fuck is this?

Last night he called us to go out, you say "if Jess goes, I'll go." What the hell are you? 8? No! 5?

Yeah sure, no one might like HW. But can't you just go for the sake of hanging out? Catching a movie? If not with that idiot then at least with CH? Or me after I agreed to go?

No! Then you panic and say you don't want to go out, you're tired, you thought I'll say no... that and all your other fucking excuses.

Then you say change it to tomorrow! And reluctant as I was last night, FINE - have it your way. I text CH and he says 'yeah tomorrow then.' I wake up this afternoon thinking we're all going out, I come online only to see you type "never receive his call le..."

I ask you to take the initiative and call him and what comes up next? I'm doing my engineer math now... SO FINE; how much shit must I take? I text him then. And what does he say? "guess not. i got test tmr. haha"

So FUCK this. I'm sick and tired. You guys meeting next week? Next holiday? Next month? Next year? Next century when I'm already 6feet underground? You can fucking go and meet up yourselves.

And I'm really tired from trying. It's putting a strain and boy, is it tempting to just give you up.

I think its time I just give it up. And walk away.