The Ripped Soul

Learnt something at work about people today. Can never understand one thing about them.. why do they have to be so rude?

First there was a person that was extremely bitchy, and even had the nerve to come back shouting "WHERES MY CARD" .....Jesus.

Maybe I was cranky, maybe I was a little snappy, but seriously.. do they have to be that rude?

Lucky Sha was there to tell me to relax and calm the fuck down. Don't know what I'd have done otherwise. Slip of the tongue? Say something to only regret later? Punch the woman?

Work was shit today, as was yesterday. Was running everywhere, crisscrossing like a motherfucker. Cashier 60 seconds, setter, runner, delivery, navigating.... I'm as tired as shit, to be honest.

Asked for feedback from Scream Face yesterday about my work, he thought for a while and said "hmm, I find you're the sort to like to go home on time. Always. It's sort of like a distraction for you. You finish whatever you're doing, and when it hits the time you're supposed to leave, you just go. So that's bad, cause it's like as if you're not focused on your work, but more on wanting to leave the moment the clock hits."

Okay, eh? I swallowed that and then some. I have my defence for that, but maybe I'm just a small fish, and I have no say, eh?

Asked feedback on my work today from Sha and had something more positive. Thank God.

She said I work well, she has no issues with me.. asides from when I start rushing everything and mess stuff up. She likes working with me, even believes that all it takes is me and her for a lunch crowd and we'll do awesome.

Nice to hear someone believes in me.

Was supposed to knock off at 9, but seeing how shit was at work, Sha asked me to stay, so I did. Wrote that I ended crappy night of work at 9 when I walked at 10.

Sometimes, it's not that I don't wanna say it. It's like I said, I'm just a small fish still swimming in the water. There's bigger fish out there that can bite. I can only blub water.

But honestly, I find that he doesn't really work. Maybe I'm wrong, I could be wrong. For all the times he's on the phone, he could be talking to someone important, someone from office. Or his girlfriend.

For all the times he's sitting outside doing rollup when there's receipts sitting in the setter's bowl, he could be helping to roll the cutlery up. Or he could be ignoring the setting that needs to be done, leaving it for someone else to do.

He's a nice guy, I won't lie. Sometimes he'll just zoom in to the rescue when I'm almost dying inside navigating and he'll serve the plates out while I'm busy with an order. He'll help me out with a delivery if I'm dying navigating and there's a sudden delivery fax in. He'll answer the phone if I'm busy with something else. He'll handle the cashier if I'm busy doing stuff.

He does stuff, he saves me sometimes, sure. But he slacks just as much at all the wrong times, and it gets so busy sometimes that when Sha and I look at him, he just seems to have all the easy going things that needs to be done. It's almost not fair.

He wants to complain that I go home on time everytime, but what do you expect me to do otherwise? It's not like when I'm supposed to end at 9 and the clock hits 9, I'm outta there, whether there's 5 plates waiting, or stuff that needs to be done. I do whatever I need to do, clean up, and when my manager/2nd IC/3rd IC gives me the green light to get the fuck out, I get the fuck out.

Why should I stay for extra hours? So I can help you out and do stuff while you sit back, relax and enjoy the show?

Not only that, sure, it's OT.. but the company is in a shape bad enough. All companies are. And to stay and work for OT? Trouble, much? Forget it. You slot me for a certain time in a day, I stay to that certain time till I'm asked to walk the walk.

When they ask me if I can stay and help, plans or no plans, I stay and help. It's as easy as that.

But like I said, I am just but a small fish.

And this is just a rant.

Here's hoping I don't get slammed for this. There's no names, no nothing, so I should be fine.. right?

I hope so.