The Ripped Soul

Thanks Joce for waking me up at 942am on my off day.

!@#$%^&*

BUT!

2 good things happened.

1, I got my nike 6.0 shoes from Queensway.
2, I passed Anna her parcel, though I didn't get to see her.

Darling!! u actually came dwn here? i tot u were gonna pass it 2 e drivers. u shud hv told me u were coming so i wont go out 4 lunch. now i feel bad tat u missed me. tq so vry mch. i luv it, jess. so sweet of u :D

And that just made my afternoon. :)

Texted her back.

:) if you didn't go for lunch, i'd feel bad because you'd be hungry, and nasi lemak wouldn't be part of the package. Haha. Glad you like it. Happy working!

Went to meet Godma afterwards with mum and we went into JB.

Drove past all the places that made me think of you... of us.

That last day we had in Orchard together.. when we went for the job, walking in, walking out, hand in hand.. you texting me "hey pretty girl" in the hotel when I sat across from you.

And I remembered what we did when we had our break. The cold tiles, the silence in the room after the last person left. Your kisses, your every touch.. always left me wanting more.

And that fucking fight in Victoria Street.

Woodlands Checkpoint. Remember that day when we were going to JB?
Was supposed to be THE best break we'd both ever have from everything going on in Singapore.

Turned out the opposite...

You were so cold, even sitting in the bus next to me.
I felt like a stranger to you.

And that hurt, because I knew I loved you.. I love you, and feeling like I was nothing but a stranger to you just made me feel like shit. Made me feel worthless. I wasn't worth your time. I wasn't worth anyone's time.

And that ride into JB even..
And in JB itself.

The mask we both had to put on right?

And I was dying inside to hold you all along.

But apparently that love was just a one sided street. And I was just passing through.

Yay me.