The Ripped Soul

Just woke up.

Head's in a frenzied mess. So many thoughts, so many things to say, but don't know where to start.

Work.

Screwed up, made a huge mistake. And I kinda panicked, because I KNEW it wasn't right, yet I did it anyway. God. Some genius I am, huh? Gut feeling told me to double check the item again with someone else from another outlet.. and true enough, the damn promotion was long fucking over.

Made some calls here and there, Andy, Sam.. at first I was told not to report to office anything, and if they casually ask about it, then well, answer for it, otherwise just pretend that nothing happened.

But the damn receipt was there! If I don't say anything now, when office goes through the sales reports again, it's bound to be traced back to me and I'd probably get fucked just as hard for NOT informing them in the first place.

Decisions, decisions, decisions..

Sam advised me on acknowledging the receipt, so I did. Added an apology and a note on the back.

Called Kat and she sounded quite panicky on the phone... and just when she kept saying over and over she was going to call the management, that it wasn't our fault, no one knew the promo was over, the kitchen didn't say anything either... I was asking her about the receipt and what I should write on it and she's yelling at me over the phone the next second saying just to acknowledge the receipt and she'll talk to mgmt about everything.

Sheesh.

And Kenny was being fresh, as usual. It's nice to have someone to talk to that understands the words coming out of my mouth naturally, but it's not so nice when it's Kenny you're talking to. Half the time the conversation is always about girls, drinking, clubbing, where did I go, what did I do the night before.. etc. And yesterday he could still tell me he was watching all of us work from the back, so he actually saw me going to 53's table to settle the steak issue.

Now I know you're probably thinking, 'Jess, don't get paranoid. People stay back after work, have a drink.. it happens, it's normal..'

And I know that's normal, because I stayed back some day in the first week to have a drink of margarita after work ended... but I left after I was done!

In this case, it almost seemed like as if he was waiting for ME to end work... And when he realized I was leaving with Anna and Clarence, he seemed almost pissed off about it.

What the fuck is up with that? Jeepers Creepers much? Holy fucking hell.

When I was done with work, I could see Kat was stressing out, and I asked her if she was okay. She could just faintly smile at me...

Sigh.

You can't save the whole world, Jess.... How do you save the world when you can't even save yourself?

Oh well. After work ended, called Anna. So happened she just finished work herself and was on the way down to SRG to see Sam and Diz. Decided to follow, so took a cab and met up with her and off we went!

First set foot in SRG and the area just felt completely alien. Like a place that I once knew, but it wasn't the same.

Saw Diz and and started going all "I see someone familiar..." Hahaha. Then Anna was all "don't disturb her jess, she's workingggg" - Okay banana, anything you say. :D

Settled down and saw Robert and Andy. Couldn't believe that I would've actually hugged them. HAHAHA. God. I went through so much hell in Tampines, and now in Bedok.. I actually miss those two jokers.

Hung out with them all for abit, heard some stuff that hurt me. People planning to backstab me just to save their own ass, me needing to actually protect myself...

Wow.

And they wanna call "let's make through the day with teamwork!"

If they wanna push the blame, what teamwork is there? Sheesh.

Came back in and heard more stories about my no.1 ....why am I so scared of her now?

Anyways, followed the trio back, sent the duo back, then was left with the banana. And it was fun talking to her, until right.. the cab fare.

She insisted on paying for it; so did I, and we were fighting for wallets and cash to take and pass to the driver. Hahaha.

Then she was all 'merajuk' when I managed to pay the fella. Then she got me cigarettes because I wouldn't let her pay. Then I got all annoyed about it.. not!

Went to Mac's so I could grab a fillet-o-fish. Walked back to her place, talking and joking and laughing about everything under the sun.. er.. moon, rather.

Back at her place I got to facebooking and I wanted to blog, but the words just wouldn't come.

Talked to her a little bit more before we both went to bed. 230am... that was how fun talking was.

She was asking me how did I know that she was the one that gave the answer in the honesty box. Well, she's the only one protective of me now.. my mom used to be, Rinnie was initially before I dated Jasmin.. then well, Jasmin was. Jasmin left. And then there was no one..

..till the banana came along!

I love Anna. She's awesome, to put it simply.