The Ripped Soul

I've watched many tearjerkers. Moulin Rouge, The Notebook, My Sister's Keeper, Keeping the Faith, Marley and me, Patch Adams.. HELL. The Lion King. But nothing made me cry as much as this movie.

Watched "This Is It" at Cine today, and I didn't regret it at all. From the start when the dancers and people who worked with him talked about him, to scenes from his rehearsals, to how he talks, how he SINGS, my god - when he sings.. it's no lip sync. You SEE what makes him the GREATEST entertainer.. and it was only 2 hours worth. Not even justified.

I listened, I watched. How his spirit was in there, how the last video of him was when he still walked this earth, and you just get slammed with the realization that he is no more. There will never be another Michael Jackson, there will never be another person singing just like him, or dancing just like him, or bringing that energy, that talent, that special factor to the stage.

And I cried while watching.

You could see how he was so tired of performing, that all he wanted was rest.. But he had to do those concerts. And for his practices, he gave his all, if not almost. He wanted EVERYTHING to be perfect. And it was. It always was. It was extraordinary. He was extraordinary. And he was SO humble, he wasn't proud, he wasn't like "I'M THE DAMN KING AND YOU'LL LISTEN TO ME!" ..he didn't throw a tantrum, he never had an attitude issue.. He was so talented, and so full of love. Amazing.

I'm going to see this movie again, hook or crook. I love it. I love MJ, always have.

I can't believe he's dead. I listen to his music now and really, it's unbelievable. He sounds so ALIVE, so MAGICAL. But the truth now is he will never perform again, he will never be on TV again. He will never. He is gone physically, although his music remains, and his spirit in his music stays. It's truly, a sad realization. But maybe it's a good thing; like they said - maybe now he will rest in peace.

God bless you, Michael Jackson. I love you. You are THE greatest entertainer of all time, to me, if not the entire world.