The Ripped Soul

Watched New Moon.

Bella's pain.. when Edward left her, reminded me a little of how I was like in December. But I remember being worse. In the cinema, I cried when she screamed, I cried because I remembered. I cried because I was the same, if not worse.

It was exciting to watch, exciting to remember the story... exciting to recall the fight scenes, and boy it was so ... to see Jacob Black/Taylor L. without his shirt on. HAHAHA. I know, I know. Girls are all going crazy for Edward and yeah, it's Rob Pattinson, and yeah, he's good looking, and yeah, he's charming...

But there's just something about Jacob Black.

Something about him I see in myself I guess. That hurt in his eyes, his whole demeanor, his sense of being, his spirit of a wolf, the need to protect the one he loves most from anything and everything, even his own flock/friends.

But meh.

Otherwise, recalling Bella and Edward, and you. Once upon a time you said you and I were just like them. The love we felt, just like theirs. The chemistry, so similar. That's how you got me reading the series. And hah, yeah. Maybe we were just like them. But then again, You left, like Edward left Bella.

But see.. he came back eventually. You never did.

Guess that's what hurts, eh?

Anyways.

To anyone I've caused hurt or pain to in December, I'm sorry. I know being that way must have hurt so many around me.. and I asked mom when I came home, and she said it hurt her.. one of her worst Christmases in all her years of living.

All I did was see Bella break herself down.. and it reminded me so much of myself.

I'm sorry, anyways.

And to the people who stayed stuck by my side and helped me heal, thank you so much.. I know it's not much. But thank you.. you know who you are. Hearing me scream bloody murder at 3am in the morning, hearing me cry... hah.

Watch new moon if you can. It's worth it.