The Ripped Soul

Shea Rogers 15 March at 14:22

this song reminds me of you ;) it's kind of what we're gonna do when you get here

I would just about give anything I could to make it all real.

I dreamt the same dream again. The riverside, the beach, the sand, the warmth of the sun, the sounds of the waves, the feel of the breeze on your skin, Shea laughing, me running after her trying to get her soaked wet.. and us holding hands while sitting on some higher platform or ground.

Ironically parts of the dream is from a memory. It was that one time when Amanda, Rach and I went to ECP to just chillax.. and I ended up chasing AJ everywhere trying to get her soaked wet, and when I finally did, she just looked so sad. And it just felt the same.

I'd give anything to make the fantasy a reality. To make the dream come alive.

Godmother keeps trying to keep my dreams alive by fueling it, saying we can do wonders when the money comes in. But the money was supposed to come in a long time ago. It's still not here yet. So many complications...

Sometimes I just feel like taking a loan from someone. 2k? Would that be enough to fly over and back? I don't have to eat at the fanciest restaurants, or go to the craziest places. I just wanna go over and see her. We could do crazy stuff that don't cost much.. raid Walmart and take crazy pictures, or lay on the ground and look at stars at night. Simple things.

But even simple things seem so hard to do sometimes... sigh.