I've never really liked silence. Comfortable silences are one thing when you are there with each other and there's nothing wrong, but then there's awkward silences which NEED to be broken, and then there's.. silence. Not peace and tranquility silence.
Just silence.
Just one day and there's nothing. No word, no text, no phonecall, no email, nothing.
And if it's with someone close, I can't begin to describe how it just kills.
I'd know because it's killing me inside. I wince at the pain because it feels TOO familiar.
Was it something I said, to make you turn away? To make you walk out and leave me cold?
I've got a feeling it's that godforsaken fucking status thing. GOD JESS. Why does a status mean SO much to you? In a relationship, single, it's complicated... WHY DOES IT MATTER AT ALL?!
Sigh.
On another note, was surprised BIG FUCKING TIME by Sherlyn, Joce, Wayne, Kiji AND Austin. Hotel one night, universal studios the next.
I need to do a proper entry on that, so I'll save it for a day when I'm awake, chirpy, and happy.
Right now I just feel like crawling into a hole.
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