The Ripped Soul

I'm sorry i didn't mean to call
But i couldn't fight it
I guess i was weak and couldn't even hide it
And so i surrender just to hear your voice
Don't know how many times i said i'm gonna to live without you
And maybe someone else is standing there beside you
But there's something baby that you need to know
That deep inside me i feel like i'm dying
I have to see you it's all that i'm asking.

Vida, give me back my fantasies
The courage that i need to live
The air that i breathe
Cariño mío, my world becomes so empty
My day's are so cold and lonely
And each night i taste
The purest of pain.

I wish i could tell you i'm feeling better every day
That it didn't hurt me when you walked away
But to tell you the truth i can't find my way
And deep inside me i feel like i'm dying
I have to see you it's all that i'm asking.

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Went for the YOUTH mass with AJ. Saw Marilyn there. She was just as shocked as I was. Saw quite a number of others as well. Like that woman from camp? The one that said my group bloody cheated? Rah. Forgiven, not forgotten. Sigh. How? I can't survive anywhere if I quit LC. Christ. Then I saw some guy who looked a lil like Wade Robson from mtv. Features, built, and the hair. Only thing went wrong is his eyes and nose. Anyway, AJ was quite irritated with me during mass cos I kept on licking my lips. SHE SAID I MADE IT SOUND LIKE I WAS SO HUNGRY. Well. I was. Actually. I was supposed to have dinner, but someone, had apparently, made, my dinner in the microwave disappear when I had my nap. Then yeah.. the mass was okay. THE SOLOIST WASN'T SINGING THOUGH. How heartbroken I was, only heaven knows. Some kid took her place and sang Gentle Woman instead. But good though. FOR A KID.

After the mass, we stuck around for awhile. She went to get FOOD, I talked to Marilyn. Caught up, this and that. After goodbye hugs, I thought of attacking whatever my dearest bestie was chewing on. But OOPS, all was left was the bloody napkins. So she, being sucha darling, went to go get some pie for me. ISN'T SHE SWEET?

Thanks woman. (:

Went back to HQ after the mass. AND NOW I'M HOME, I HAVE TO IRON MY ATTIRE FOR TOMORROW. WTF.

So yeah. Goodnight world. (:

PS: I saw this REALLY ADORABLE kitten down my block. IT WAS SO FUCKING CUTE, I SWEAR TO GOD, IF I COULD WRAP IT IN MY ARMS AND TAKE IT HOME, I BLOODY WOULDVE. It let me scratch its ears for awhile before some KID came behind me and scared all the cats off to the drains. RAAAHH!