The Ripped Soul

Had a HELL of a time cycling with CH and Jaws today.. quite literally.

Almost got knocked down at zebra crossings and traffic junctions. Not once, not twice.. not even thrice. I stopped counting after 5 when I was at Kallang. And I was cycling to City Hall. And all near-accidents by speeding cars and motorists, no less.

At Bug's Junc. I heard from CH that he's been trying to contact me but to no avail. And that someone else keeps SMSing him constantly, asking him if he likes me.

At this point, before things blow.. I suggest to those who know; please just STFU.

That's damned right. Shut the fuck up. Because right now, I don't want an answer. I don't need an answer. And therefore I don't need YOU to poke your hugeass of a nose into my affairs. I don't need you to harass him and ask him for answers that even - I - don't bloody ask for.

Does he like me, what he did with the letter..... I don't give a flying fucking shit what questions you're asking. As long as its got something to do with me, and him.. I don't want to hear it. And I don't want you to ask anything. You'd know if I wanted you to ask. Because I'll ask you to ask. And if I didn't, then don't do anything. You're not doing me any damn favours. Comprehende?

Why? Why am I so jumpy you're the one asking questions? The reason is simple. Because even if there is a day where he comes back, he won't get to be a citizen of this country. Unless rules change, then that would be a different story. Don't you see? All he gets to be is just a tourist. A guard at most if he gets accepted and sent here; which I highly doubt. And then what? He's no china national. He can't marry anyone from here and just stay here forever and ever. This isn't gonna be some Disney happy ending.

Stay out of my affairs, alright? Being a friend is one thing..

Keeping your nose in my business, when I didn't ask for it, is another.

So do me a favour.. just don't bother. Don't. Bother.