The Ripped Soul

MC-ed.

Hung out with Anna since I couldn't take stuff at home. Bickering and noise...

All the time I was outside, either memories of Jasmin and I came into play or I would think about the shit of a situation I am in and what the fuck I was to do.

Couldn't take the ping pong game in my head anymore and I broke the news to Anna.

Every single thing happening with me.

The reason why I was pushing everyone away.

Now she knows why I feel so disturbed.

Fuck, I STILL feel disturbed.

The idea of me going to jail isn't pretty. The idea of me being a rat? Not so beautiful either.

Broke down at her place.

I feel like breaking down again.

Got the job offer to work with him again.. but after what he did to me, I don't think I could ever face him again.

I could set aside differences... but to work with him again? Be in the same room? Live with the same fear for my own safety?

..and then this at work?

I don't know which is worse.