The Ripped Soul

Last day yesterday with the Marines. Vikings. Dolphins.

Felt that I was gonna miss it all from the moment I stepped in. Smoking a stick before work starts, the rush to finish the opening before its 1030am just to time myself at how fast I can do what needs to be done - and I'm as fast as it gets AND I love it - the rush when there's a lunch crowd, eating/smoking/laughing/dancing/working together with Sha and teasing the kitchen guys whenever we feel like it.

I love the whole bunch of them. My dream team, and that would be them. Really. Diz as my mgr, Sha as the second IC, Mike as the Snr Cook, Alan as the Aneh in the kitchen, co-mates being guys like Kit, Lat and Bing..

Even though they all have their issues sometimes.

Like Kit was crying yesterday.. a customer blew his head off at her for repeating the order repeatedly. The fuck, right. I liked being the navi for the night. The rush was incredible. 2k. Fuckin nonstop, the damn dinner crowd. So anyway, she was crying and E was trying to raise her spirits up.. I just kept kidding with her and chasing her to do tables, instead of having her stand before me and think about whatever happened.

Told her not to cry, even though I was leaving and everything. She smiled. Haha.

When Diz gave Sha and me a smoke break outside, I was laughing fucking hard at Alan's jokes with Sam. Bastard was saying he was gonna beat me up, he beats girls up - all because I won't buy them a round of drinks or something since it was my last day. Told him straight I got everyone a bottle of Coke and Ice Lemon Tea and he said point blank to my face "you haven't died before, right?"

Hahaha.

Owe a drink, Pay for the drinks. (O$P$) Lol.

Felt really, really broken inside.. It's like saying goodbye to a family, you know? Hah.

After work, changed into a skirt and tee and went out for drinks and karaoke with Sam, Diz and Sha. Sha left at two, I continued with the other two.. they surprised me when Sha was leaving. They had a card for me! And everyone signed in it.

Nearly fucking cried, I tell you. Haha.

Saw what they all had to write inside, and it brought me to tears. Funny how a person like me could make an impact on them, huh.

Bing wrote 'Gotta get get! You are always a very cheerful girl. I like you. Good luck. All the best!'
Shang wrote 'Happy everyday! :D'
Yu Lei wrote 'I love you Jess!'
Kitten wrote 'Hey Jess, thanks for ol stay bitch!! thanks also for being ass-to-my-whole. haha.. muah..'
Alan wrote 'Please stay stupid!'
Isha wrote 'stay crazy, bitch!! -dead & gone'
Sam wrote 'Loads of hugs.......'

And last but not least,

Diz wrote 'take care kiddo...'

Sang like crazy at the karaoke room, rocked out to songs by Evanescence, Mercy, even. Felt that I really sang my heart out to Bring me to life. Hahaha. Had supper after with Sam and Diz afterwards.. and those two nearly got into a fight at Macs. Saw the look on Sam's face and it reminded me of myself back in November whenever Jas and I argued. Lucky [?] I was there to tell them both to shush and calm down.

Crashed over theirs after getting invited from Sam. She kissed my forehead after telling me I was invited to stay over. Hahahaha. Freaking knocked the motherfuck out at 5am. Literally.

I told Sam I was gonna go crash, and I went to the room, saw the mattress, collapsed, even with no pillows or anything.. I was flat out. Tired. From 10am to 5am. HAHA. What the fuck.

Apparently Sam threw pillows and the comforter on top of me - but I don't remember it. All I know is I went to sleep no pillows or anything, and when I woke up, I was sleeping on top of pillows and I was nicely all wrapped up in a comforter. :D

Was told later that she wrapped me up. Wonder how she managed.

Then a hug to Sam before she left. A hug for Diz before I followed her directions to make my way home.

I'm going to miss them, very, very much.

Lots of pictures were taken throughout the night, but I wished most I could've taken one with ALL of them.. even the kitchen guys. Everyone left early though. :(

Thought I might've been able to see someone around on my last day there.. but she didn't show.

Haven't seen her in so long.. well, it feels long. And we haven't really been in touch, either. Sad, huh?

Something's missing. I can't place it. I just feel empty inside.