The Ripped Soul

Couldn't sleep last night. Listened to old conversations.. and I missed you. You sounded so cute whenever you were sleepy, did I ever tell you that? And then the nights when you were STILL on the phone, but already asleep in bed.. leaving me to talk to myself. Heh.

I'm so tired of being alone, and it's kinda like no matter how much I put myself out there, I'm never good enough. I'm never pretty enough, never sexy enough, never smart, successful, witty or crazy enough for anyone.

It's sad and depressing. A fucking lonely life.

Was telling Rin about it earlier, and she's like "MOVE TO FLORIDA AND BE WITH ME!"

I probably should.. eh?

What else is there for live for in Singapore?

The people I wish I could be with, want to be with - they're all taken.

Worse still, I think if they knew, they'll all probably freak out. Then I'd REALLY need to move to Florida. Create a new identity while I'm at it.

And Jas, well.. enough said, right? She said she didn't love me anymore after that last conversation over the phone, and that last visit at her house.

It hurts, but nicely done.

And now she says she likes someone else, but that one's taken. A sign that maybe she's moving on? Probably.

Whatever it is, I feel lonely. It's sad enough to admit it, but that's the sad truth.

I wish I had someone.