The Ripped Soul

Jessica

just here to pop and sayyyyy youre not forgotten, i miss you and love you dearly. hope everything's okay with you (: g'night

5:39amShea

you going to bed sweetness?

5:39amJessica

at 5:39am, yup

hahah

5:40amShea

haha

yeah, I figured it was late

you never talk to me anymore :P

5:40amJessica

doesnt mean i love you less or dont think about you anymore :p

tbh, i just clicked chat and saw you were on green, so decided to tryyy and say hi and see if you'll say hi back

5:42amShea

well I don't feel loved :(

5:42amJessica

D:!

5:42amShea

you won't ever come see me

5:42amJessica

._.

im working on that, not really easy though.. i really wanna see youuuu D: i always have

since the days of fiesta and trying to webcam using a fail camera

hahaha

5:45amJessica

lets just say things that were promised to me didnt really go as planned

but we'll see, maybe for my 21st i'll get something done

5:45amShea

just swim over

damn

5:45amJessica

hahaha

5:45amShea

it can't be that far

5:46amJessica

or dig a hole in a ground and hope i pop out in alabama

how are you though?

5:47amShea

I'm fine I guess

really tired all the time

I think it has something to do with this cough medicine I'm taking for pneumonia though

5:48amJessica

:L

are you getting any better?

5:50amShea

I guess so

5:51amJessica

well stick to the meds for now.. if your situation doesnt improve, stop e meds and see a doc again

drink warm stufffs D: and eat food, not junk

hope you get better soon dear

5:52amShea

yeah

I'm just tired of coughing

5:52amJessica

tell your lungs and head that :p

STOP COUGHING NIGGA DAMN

5:53amShea

hahahaha

you said nigga

5:56amJessica

yeeeeah well

im all the way here

no one can get me, im all ninja baby

5:58amShea

hahaha

well anyway

you should come here

5:59amJessica

yeah i know, we've both been saying that since we knew each other

then there was that whole bangkok-plan

i really wanna go over, just dont really have the means to.. im not all richie rich or lady gaga hahaha

when i can, and i promise with proof or evidence of a ticketed flight over, i'll let you know, kay shawty? :D

6:01amShea

aight I guess lol

6:01amJessica

awesome :D

now, bedtime

niiiiiiiiiiiight

6:02amShea

goodnight

....

I'm sorry I let you down in December. I know, huh? So many plans, so many ideas and thoughts and dreams.. and it all got killed.

I wish I could, I swear I do. I'll take the first flight out, whatever the seating, whatever the cost.

I wanna hate someone for killing my dreams.. but even my heart can't bring to hate. I just feel sad it didn't happen as planned.

It doesn't have to be a "so you fly over, you see them then what?" That would be almost as good as asking yourself "so you study in poly, then what? Work in a job you didn't study for? So you paid for shit? Isn't that useless?"

The idea of going over is to see friends, friends I've made and who've stuck with over years.. people who I've always wanted to meet. Kinda like stars or musicians or bands. These guys are special too.. they're friends. People I love. And I've always wanted to know how fun it could possibly get.. to be with different people.

Sigh..