goodbye

Dearest Shea

Let me start off first by thanking you for everything you've done for me during my stay here in Alabama. I know you couldn't really be there all the time, or that you couldn't take me everywhere, but you've taken the time to show me around certain places, and drive me around everywhere, tiring as it is. So for that, I thank you for making my stay a pleasurable, memorable one.

I know on the first day when you stepped in the room, you mentioned that you had absolutely no idea why I wanted to go to AL. It wasn't Vegas, it wasn't Cali, there was.. or would be nothing really much to see. So I don't know if you know yet, but the truth is the reason I decided to come to AL was for you. It was to see you. Spend time with you. Do things with you. Be with you. It wasn't just to learn or see how you guys are like over here, or how things work. It wasn't to taste Asian food and compare it to how it was back home. Though all those things put together made my stay a fun one.

Maybe it's a little too late now, but I know I would never have the courage to say it to your face, so maybe I deserve what's on my end of the stick.

As I loved you all those years ago, all those months ago when I promised to come, I still do now. I might have never showed it, but I did. But as far as I could tell, you didn't really feel the same even after seeing me in real life. I'm sorry if I wasn't the person you thought I would be. You were everything and so much more, though.

I'm sorry to hear about Katie. I guess I know what it feels like to lose your best friend, as I did, years back. And I mean, I still know the feeling. I was in the States with no family, no friends.. nobody. Just you. But during my stay here, I've seen the people you work with, the people you hang out with, your friends.. and you should know that you're not alone. You might not have a best friend for now, or have a best friend far away in another State, but you've got a bunch of close friends.. who are cool as ice, at the same time. And hey, if ever you feel like you've got no one, then I guess I'm always here, right? I'm just an email/text/phonecall away.

So I guess this is it. I wish you all the best life has to offer, all the joy it can bring. I wish you love, and I hope that one day you'll find someone who will treat you right and love you for all that you are, because you're really amazing. I mean, c'mon. Someone tripping over 3 million things and falling into a fountain? No one can beat that.

Maybe we'll meet again someday, but if we don't, then it's been a pleasure to have met you finally. I had fun, and I hope you did too.

Peace.

Love always,

Jess.